You are perfect, we are perfect, I have never experienced this constant happiness within my life, this secure feeling, this is amazing.

To be completely honest, when I look at you, I see my future, I see so many experiences that could easily happen, so many memories to be made, so much more life to live,
Together.

I could talk to you forever, I could look into those eyes forever, I could hold you and never let go, and I mean every word, I could spend the rest of my life with you, and I would be completely happy.

I hope, infact, I dream, that this will never end. I am yours. That is all.

I love you. 

I am thinking it’s a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss, they’re perfectly aligned.

I couldn’t wait any longer, it has been becoming, obviously, more and more apparent to me, and something in my perspective changed… the fact that I really don’t have that much time left on this earth, so I thought, this can last, and I know it will, so why not make the most of it and be truly happy sooner rather than later..

I know both in my heart and in my mind that I made the right decision tonight, I have absolutely no doubt whatsoever.

You are perfect Nicole. You may not choose to see that, but from the day I met you, I’ve seen it.

I have never been so sure in saying I am in love with someone than I am now, I am in love with you Nicole.

And I am completely ready to proceed from this point onwards at any ‘speed’ you want, as long as you are by my side, I do not care. :)

It’s Starting Differently

It’s starting the right way :)

And I have to learn from previous mistakes.

She wrote this, I have always pushed the fact that I am in love with her to the back of my mind, because in doing this, I’m actually giving ‘us’ a chance to last for a very long time, because nothing lasts at this age, there’s no point in pretending it does or telling her how I feel, she wouldn’t believe me anyway, not after all we’ve been through. So if down the track, it happens, then it happens, I will try leaving my life in fate’s hands.

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Eyelashes and fingertips

I don’t think I will ever forget those moments. Not for a very long time at least, if I do, then just know you created perfection in my life. Lying there with you leaning on my shoulder, falling asleep, your breathing was perfectly synchronized with mine. Looking down and seeing you sleeping so silent, your ridiculously long eyelashes and genuinely seeing just how beautiful you were, are. How beautiful everyone can be. I remember I started to wonder about your dreams, what stories were weaving their way in and out of your head. Whether you were dreaming about her. There was a point where I wondered whether or not you were wishing that it was her with you, and not me. And then I realised that it didn’t matter. Being with you in a different world, a world I’ve only ever visited alone. It was nice having you there. Warm. When I drifted, in and out, I could feel your eyes blazing into my eyelids. Daring me to stare back. Your hands left trails on my skin, magical lines of shining colours. There is nothing more beautiful than having someone trace your skin with their fingertips. There is so much sensitivity in hands, at the same time strength. And warmth. Goosebumps. I love the rare moments where time means nothing, the world means nothing, my head is silent. It’s those moments where I can see the world for all it can be. I could never see like this all the time, it loses its magic, but today was magic. I fell in love with you today. Not in a romantic sense of, ‘I want to kiss you’ or ‘I want to marry you’, for the first time I saw perfection. Something I have never believed to exist before today. Reading this back, I know what it sounds like. But it’s not like that, and I realise that I don’t need to try and explain that to anyone or prove it to myself. Words don’t matter. It didn’t last long. Minutes later I was back to wondering why I was even around you again, the flaws returned, the thoughts came and that stain on your red shirt was disgusting. The magic had broken, but that’s all a part of it. It can’t last.

Just know that for a moment, you were perfect.

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